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Hey guys I haven’t been writing for so long. The thing is I have been hospitalized and diagnosed with …….. ( let’s keep it low on that, okay? )

But one thing I could share is that Depression
led me into having this mind blogging mess. It’s really hard being happy and all in some given time and then figure out nobody cares. Trust me, I punch myself all the time literally and feel happy on another second.

I go to therapy all the time though but it’s really hard

You over there could say “Get over it” Well guess what I hope I could do that easily. People tell that to me almost every second of the day but really, it doesn’t help even by an inch.

Moving on, my mom has been helping me figure it all out. I don’t know if I’m stubborn or what… nothing is happening. I’m still sad, sick, ugly & alone. I only see her twice in a week.

I know it’s a common disorder and that most people have major depression I just want you to know that we could care for each other.

We could help each other out.
We could HELP EACH OTHER!

Why aren’t we doing that lately? Let’s do this thing!!

So, tell me how your day was. Type down in the comments below and give me your email account so we can start SHARING!!!

:) have a nice day

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Things To Realize Part 2: Attitude & Manners

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Here comes the sun! Try to cheer up my lonely friend. This is solely for the purpose of those people feeling alone and sad like me, I hope this could reach out to you and we can share the same feelings together.

Attitude and Manners

People who work at the market at night are always being directed to rearrange everything that is out of order and pick up new supplies and load them on the racks and shelves. They also have to make sure that the labels are facing the front. But the grocery stores are massive and yeah kinda creepy when you are alone at night. What if you were working there? And your co-workers are a hundred feet away? will you still do your job accurately?

Do your right job and do not cheat your way in. Our attitude and manners are rightfully tested when no one is looking. So if you see a nice man on the streets with hundred of people looking at him, beware, it may be only a figurehead just so people would honor him. What can I say? We can’t tell if a person’s intention is good.

To do good things needs work. Slacking off might be a great idea. But for those who wants to succeed, LEAVE it behind.

It may not seem that easy but if you want the world to change for you and be better, the change should start with … YOU. Start doing the right thing, even if others are mistreating you, just show kindness to them.
Even if they are rude or what, be the smart one and be kind.

Commonly, when you create a mistake and don’t do anything to make it better, there’s a voice in your head called ‘conscience’ and it can hunt you down for weeks, months and years and leave you with anxiety, guilt and regret. To make your conscience be sealed, do good things.

A man who has a silent & happy conscience is stronger. Strength enables him to withstand even the mightiest storm.

In our world, well educated people thinks highly of themselves cause they were enlightened. Well educated people thinks they are more worthy than the poor and needy. Well educated people thinks they are over us cause they have money.

There are a lot of articles I read saying that a nice man shows that he is educated since he didn’t scoop down the level of a person against him.
But now, l realize even if you are educated that doesn’t mean you are correct all the time.

Because in our generation, many people are educated and successful, but they lose what is essential and that is manners.

So SCHOOL <—– please remember that something worth knowing cannot be taught. It is found and realized by yourself using your experiences being tackled in your life’s timeline.

I am craazeeeh. Seriously I don’t remember what I just said in this article.

tell me your stories showing how you dealt with the world’s mess

Things to Realize Part 1: Happiness

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I’m back! I’m here again with my series called Things to Realize. Basically, it is about stuff I learned in 2 months time while whining everyday. Life is a big pain, somehow happiness is quite dull and 15 miles away.

What makes you happy?

What makes you excited?

What is the best thing you love?

What gives you inspiration to live?

Basically, if it’s money, haha forget it. Money isn’t that discreet, it’s a number, it never ends. Your longing and desire for money never ends. Happiness starts when you accomplish or received something.

What I realized:

I realized that Happiness comes and go. You can be happy right now, you can be sad an hour later. It depends in your situation. The world will not stop giving pain and strife. NEWSFLASH! No one’s immune. Even if you are 10 ft tall, a billionaire or whatever, there’s problems ahead your line. The poor may say at least you are not feeling this, not feeling that, but we have different levels of thinking and actions. Things a person can do that you can’t. So being judgmental is a big mistake in our generation.

Just find happiness in small things and get excited. Appreciate the the little things you have please please please. Like taking a bath, watching a tv, lock in your brain that you haven’t done that for 3000 years…..

I am craaaaazzzzyyyy

If you are unhappy, and thinks that you can’t be happy anymore, here’s the thing:

Why don’t you say that you have JOY in your heart…?

JOY is different than happiness.

Grammatically yes…
But essentially no…

Joy is more than a state of being or characterized by.

It is the knowledge that God loves you and he will never leave you alone.

With God holding your hand, nothing can go wrong…..

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Tell me how your day was..

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Things taken for granted?

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I’d like to tell you all how I really hate it when people talk gormlessly about me. Oh, if ever I hear someone say so, I turn my back and start a fight. I don’t let people talk that way to me. Huh!! I’ll punch people a couple of times and then there’s just this sudden outburst of feeling and I wanna cry and all. I KNOW YOU FEEL THE SAME WAY. PS.. I’m kind, I have never punch anyone who pissed me off … YET.

A couple of things you take for granted:

The beautiful grandma who watched you grow, who tells you story and entertain you, who cried when you were born and said “hey, she’s a beauty, how wonderful she is”. Now that her memory is dull, you run away from her.

The number of times you eat. Sometimes, I mean, all the time, children from all races and ages are dying because of hunger. It wasn’t their fault they were naturally born poor. Silly actions. Silly silly.

The perfect working body you have. With all the diseases and injuries one can attain, It’s wonderful that you can still read this clearly or to function your brain.

Your old friend that helped you through the years. You have forgotten his name cause he is no longer in your class.

That small waging waiter who accidentally spilled water on you and you were in rage??

The comfy bed or couch you have in your house… Some people just lay around on grass, sticks, cold.. Harddd ground. Oh oh oh trouble troubl trouble .. sorry

The parents who still sustains you. The ones who brought you into life. The ones who fed you. The ones who always provides you. I GET IT THAT YOU’LL SAY BUT MY MOM IS STRICT, BOSSY, SHE NEVER GIVES ME ANY STUFF I WANT, I WANNA GO TO JAPAN BUT SHE WON’T LET ME, MY MOM IS NOT WORKING HARD ENOUGH SO SHE COULD GET A HIGHER INCOME AND GIVE ME THIS AND THAT….. Well, sorry my friend… just so you know, for is normal people, money really really and it can provide happiness ….. But for people like me, money isn’t easy… Not everyone can afford this and that… And if your desire is to have money… then keep dreaming until you die.. For people who long for money never gets satisfied.

Sorry, it’s like this special days when I am having cyclothymia and dysthymia attacks. I just type down whatever I wanted to say. Sorry if it is ugly, or hurting, please understand my condition.

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The Joke was on me (Diary entries of a poor teenager)

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So I will be pretending to be that kid okay? PS. I have no thoughts of killing myself, thank you.

Dear Diary,

It has been 2 days since I saw my best friend shoot himself. I tried… I tried…. I tried to stop him. He was just standing in front of me with only 2 meters in between us. I felt the world stop at the sound of the alarming gun. I was in shock. Then blood gushed out of him and splashed all over the room. I was terrified. I just sat there with eyes wide open while a dead body lay before me. I didn’t know what to do….


My mom is sleeping in the couch, I can smell cigar and alcohol all the way here. It has always been this way since Dad cheated on her… and since then, her mother instincts for my older sister and I passed away too. If it wasn’t for sister, both of us might be dead already. But it doesn’t matter for her, I believe. She considers herself dead already, though her body is alive, she needn’t a spirit.

My sister and I had a talk earlier, she told me she’s moving on with her life and leaving hell here. “I’m going to move in with Dan, I hope you understand. This place is a mess, I can’t handle this anymore. I will be leaving you both. I can’t handle it anymore, I stopped school for you and got a job to provide your needs, I just can’t take it.” I guess I’ll be all alone then. I can’t just leave mom around, she’s mom… She was my darling. She was my angel. I can’t leave her. I guess I have to stop school and find a job tomorrow. *sigh* I’m only 15…. I guess there wasting my time complaining about my situation won’t help.

Dear Diary,

It’s not my lucky day, I can’t find a job… I haven’t eaten anything today, I gave my mom a burger the manager gave me after making me leave the fast food. I left in on her messy table, I didn’t bother talking to her. If she spent her savings to buy us food, this wouldn’t be a problem anymore. I though of calling my sister Marla to help me out, but she just shut me out. I don’t know what else to do. Our small house is so dirty and I haven’t had anything to eat today, while my mom has been using all our savings for her cigarette and liquors. I don’t know what to do.

Dear Diary,

I remember my uncle telling me to do my best to become a lawyer, he was the only one who believed in me. He helped me to win some points for the girl I have a crush on. But due to cancer, my last hope flew away.


I went out of my room today, I didn’t saw my mom sleeping. I looked to the kitchen and I saw her all dressed up and she has a large tote bag on her arm. “Mom! Where are you going?” I was smiling a bit. It’s a big change. I’ve never seen her like this before. She looks like my good ole mother. I’m so happy. She smiled at me humming ‘How deep is your love’ by BEEGEES it was her favorite things to sing to Dad before. She went out of the house and bidded “Good luck looking for a job, okay?”. I nodded.
I never had parental guidance since I was 8, the year my dad left. I’ve been living without someone looking after me. I grew without my mom and dad caring. I was so lonely. Those words made me happier and stronger.

Dear Diary,


It has been 2 days since my mom left. It’s a joke. Hahaha. My life is a joke. Hahaha Why am I always alone and left out? At school, I was bullied and alone. At my house I am nothing. It’s so sad…. Really depressing. I don’t know what’s more depressing, my mom leaving me… Or my hungry growling stomach.


More and more and more teenagers are suffering this kind of situation. This often leads to committing suicide. I’m calling out for the people who are well enough to help out.

15 million people are dying because of hunger. As creepy does that sound, most of them are children. While here we are, eating buffet all the time and leave portions of food untreated.

:) I don’t know what more to say.

Have a nice day!

How To Stop Faking a Smile

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There might be a lot of reasons why you should be sad. The world just never stops until it gives you challenges that you should conquer to be able to gain strength and courage to face your future.

One time, I tried asking an adult for an advice, the outlook wasn't that great in my opinion.

"I'm not having fun today. I'm really sad and depressed. I don't like anything here. I want to escape from this ambiance"

How dare you say that? Just think about the people around you that are suffering greater problems. That’s so childish of you. You’re so lucky in where you are right now



I was not really happy and satisfied with this advice

Why should I bother and ponder my time thinking about the miserable?

Thinking about them makes me more sad.

It’s wrong to compare myself to others.

WHEN YOU COMPARE:
It’s either you weigh yourself down-which is not good, or put others down-which isn’t good either.

But somehow I understand what the advice says, the adult just wanted me to be happier, but I am not happy knowing that the situation of others are darker than those of mine.

Remember to be just who your MELON HEART says.


Follow what your heart says..
You don’t need other people to make yourself feel special. ‘Cause you’re already special in your own way
Don’t compare yourself to those ahead of you or neither the ones below you.


  1. Take some time out of your home. Take a vacation in the mountains, forests, beach, oceans or anywhere breathtaking. Go to a place where you can confide with nature and admire it’s beauty. Go out in peace and just enjoy the view. LOVE IT. There you can have time for yourself and you can thank God for giving you such wonderful things. With peace beside you, I’m sure you’ll realize the good things.
  2. Enjoy the little things Big things comes in small packages. Like the kindness you show today can be gathered up little by little, then at the end of everything, all your hard work will pay off.
  3. Enjoy the company of your Real Friends Try to talk to your friends and have fun together. Not just look down on the screen of your phone. GO TO THEM. Because socializing in your phones are really just a sham. You are really confident on your conversations on your phones but really shy in real life. So go to them. In that way, you can really see them and enjoy. But choose them wisely. Don’t go out to those who influence you wrongly.
  4. Forgive. Trust me, it’s really a pain keeping anger and revenge inside.
  5. Be with your family Since they are the first ones to show you love, why not share a laugh with them?
  6. Listen to relaxing tunes Try some songs by Sara Bareilles or Ana Laura.
  7. Stop thinking you’re lonely No man is an island. Of course, there will always be someone wanting to be with you
  8. Just be Patient. Good things come to those who wait Persevere and work hard to reach your dreams. Bunches of loots will come back to make you feel happy.
  9. Spread Your Love Love one another. Share good influences to others. Share smiles.
  10. Use your imagination THE SKY IS THE LIMIT? no, haha there are footprints on the moon mmm,kay? The only limitation there is ahead of you… is your own imagination. RUN WILD!

WITH THESE AWESOME THINGS, YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO SMILE NOW. CAMON! LET ME SEE THAT SMILE!!

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Have an auspicious day!

How to reach out to the 3Ls

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EMPATHY

Today, we often forget that the people around us have feelings too- they can feel pain, they can feel happiness just like you. We try to put ourselves first and we forget to put ourselves in the shoes of others.

Just like the Golden Rule :

Do to others what you want others to do into you

So today, I’ll be sharing some small ways wherein we can help the 3L’s;
LOST, LEAST, & LUST. Just like what I said before; we need to put on the shoes of other people so we can appreciate the life we have and be satisfied with the blessings upon us.

With so, if we refuse to help the needy, poor and the outcasts, we would also be detesting God. Remember, even if a few men push you away and give up on you, God will never leave you. God loves you. We are lost without God. We are least without God and we are lust without Him.

Do you have a room with a roof?
Do you have a nice, comfy, warm bed to rest upon?
Do you eat 3 times a day?
Do you have proper attire to protect your body?

If you said yes, you are probably richer and more blessed than 75% of the world.

Reflect on the miseries of other people that you don’t have?

I know that we all have different problems that our different ideas and opinions can comprehend. But also if we feel a little happy and satisfied, wouldn’t it be a great idea if we stop for awhile? Get out of our comfort zone and help out our brothers and sisters.


  1. Volunteer on any advocacies or projects. There you can help group organizers repack goods to be sent to Third World Countries or when a calamity strikes a country. A small helping hand can make a big difference when CHARITY is involved.
  2. Offer to read bible readings or storybooks to orphans Orphans kind of have a short upbringing depending on the caregivers they have and the orphanage they are staying in. To help these small impressive kids, why don’t we try to teach them manners aside from properly educating them and teach then the value of love, trustworthiness and camaraderie among their friends who they treat like a family inside.
  3. Have some old toys? You can try visiting some village or small coastal areas and give the little kids you see playing around your old cool fun stuffs
  4. Is it your birthday? Last year when I turned thirteen, I didn’t have any time to celebrate my birthday at all. I was on top of a mountain with a group of people. We were there to give away school supplies to the children who are studying there and we also had a small feeding program. I used up all the money that were supposed to be used for my birthday and spent it all up there.
  5. Let’s use our brain and help in many possible ways There are many possible ways on how we could help. If we are also financially lost, then of course we could also help in a way we won’t need to pay.
  6. Remember that helping isn’t just about giving money to the poor, donating your old clothes and stuffs. Think about it. Helping doesn’t always mean they take more from you. Just remember that even if they take stuffs from you, you are being refilled by God anyways.

    Please add more suggestions and make sure to put some comments below. leave me a reply!

    If you liked this, thank you!

    Have a fun day!
    Bbyyyeeee